Here we go again. My people skills could be better. I could be more sensible. I could be smarter about conflict resolution. But sometimes the urge is simply to say, "Ah, fuck it."
 
At such times it seems like I've been criticized all my life, that people are always trying to change who I am. I try to remember what a Buddhist might say, "I am not my past." That what is important is to move forward, kindly, compassionately.
 
It is hard to be kind and compassionate to someone whom you no longer respect as a result of numerous overreactions. Yet this person is also not her past, I guess. This person can also move forward.
 
Ach. The trouble with writing this online is that I have to be so oblique. Time for some paper and pen work, me old.
 
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